My Light

I'm writing to tell you

I love you

But my mind

is distracted

It sees the day

as a column of boxes

to be checked

a list of things

to do

and rules

to follow

It is regimented

and controlled

this life I am living

To live freely

to live openly

would be granting power

to the unknown

to the uncertain

I hope you can understand

I found you

before I found myself

and I am still searching

I may seem lost sometimes

but you are

my guiding light

my glimmer of hope

that one day

I'll stop looking

and start loving

myself

and you

and us